Handicapping Harrison

I'm not entirely sure what it is I have to say. I think it may be attributed to the fact that I try not to think too much anymore. You see, I've found people like you better when you don't think too much or too deeply. I use to think a lot; about places in the world or in books, about what every little action might say about one's subconscious feelings, what certain people's root aspirations were, and I use to say what was on my mind. But as I've said, people didn't really enjoy this. I guess it makes sense. I mean thinking too much about anything would no doubt lead to depression as the root cause of almost everything is the fear of death: something I've discovered during my 'thinking era'. But what if we're meant to think more than is encouraged isn't that how the ‘geniuses’ get ahead, how the successful people become successful? It's seems a lot like censorship. The idea of having barriers of how deeply one should think, I mean. I will admit, however, that it does seem to make you somewhat happier as a person. I feel relieved of constantly trying to analyze bits and pieces of life, like I can finally stop worrying about what everything might mean and just worry about myself. Is that selfish? I don't want to be selfish. This seems like a big struggle for those that are cursed with this deep-thinking mind: to seek the larger view of life and understanding of it and sacrifice the happiness of perfect obliviousness, or to live in this elating ignorance but sacrifice the opportunity to achieve something greater.